Hey ladies and gents. So, I had the most fucking epic anagram of my name, HOWEVER thanks to our friends, Legalities, I couldn’t fucking use it.
Anyway, diving right into today’s topic of conversation: stress.
Stress can and will kill a person. We all know this. I have never been good at dealing with my stress factors. Ever. So the thing I ran to, to try and destress myself, was always weed. Yes, I am referring to wacky tobaccy, kids. Well, after practically spending almost 6.5 month of wasting money (and time,) I ended up being hospitalized for chest pains due to…..wait for it……fucking STRESS!!! That’s right. I was on the verge of having a heart attack. So, clearly I have since ditched the green. I had such a rough time going through withdrawl from it. I always thought it was a mind over matter thing, which is definitely is for me (not for everyone though,) but it made me really open my eyes to how I was so dependent on this one thing just to attempt to make it through the day. I was addicted. Horribly. When it wouldn’t calm me the way it SHOULD HAVE, I drank too. I can’t even begin to tell you all how happy and proud of myself, that I utilized that deep power within me to kick all that shit to the curb and do it cold turkey.
So anyway, getting back on topic here, I was hospitalized and had a major wake up call. I struggled for a little bit with finding something to replace what I assumed was giving me endorphins. After trial and error with different stress relieving methods, I looked in the mirror one day and absolutely hated how I looked and how I felt. So I got up off of my ass and Thus my Gym Chronicles were born. Since having my wake up call and finding my new love of going to the gym, I’ve lost a significant amount of weight and I am still going to push for more, obviously. I actually went to the gym twice today, one hour workouts each. I can’t begin to tell you how renewed and refreshed I feel after I finish working out. I feel like a brand new version of myself. The best part of it all is that while working out, I get rid of most of my stress! I powerhouse through everything I do, like a boss! (Tyger can totally vouche for this too because he’s seen it first hand.)
Stress is a bitch. Since working out (amongst other topics of conversation for later blogs) I have been able to reduce my stress so much to the point that I maybe get chest pains 1 time a week, if that. I honestly don’t know if I would still be here if I kept doing the stupid shit I was doing. Now, I’m not saying this is the case for everyone, because everyone is different. My moral here, my main point, is that if you’re going through a lot of shit that is stressing you out, find a healthy outlet for that stress and get that anger/sadness/resentment right out of your bones! Life is too short to stress out to the point where you fear for you life! TAKE IT FROM ME!!! Is it worth being hospitalized over? #NEGATIVENANCY it most certainly is NOT worth it! Not even worth as far as you could piss or spit. If something has caught you out of character and has you stressed, read this and know that I was where you were once. You’re not alone. You can vent to me because #CookieCares. You may not always get a response right away but by the end of the day, I will definitely have shed some light your way as needed.
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